Happy 2015, everyone, and thanks for following along with my lifelong pursuit to keep at work with my art on a professional and personal level.
The last couple of months I have had the great privilege of working with one of my favorite software doing one of my favorite things! My task was to make a bunch of 3D sculptures in Zbrush out of children's drawings and make them suitable to print as physical models with Shapeways and a company called 3DP4E. A few of them are now on an extended display at the Children's Museum of Art in New York City thanks to 3DP4E, which I had the honor meeting and of being escorted by, to go and see the exhibit for myself the other weekend!
It was a small but incredulously awesome display to say I was a part of, that hangs near the front entrance and is semi-viewable to the outside passersby who doesn't have time to step in.
I wasn't in town to attend the reception, because I was still in California at the time, but luckily was able to make it back home to find it may become a permanent exhibit! Quite the honor and it is picture worthy, as I haven't yet had the opportunity to be awarded too many of these types of jobs like this at this point in my career...
Currently, I am scrambling around to find work again, trying to stay focused and keep inspired while I try not to panic about money and worry about being broke.... This was a definitely a nice booster to my professional confidence, as times have been tough since I've left the airlines and made the leap to try to launch my career with art in entertainment full time.
I recently completed animation a 45 second promotional piece for the movie, "A Horse Story", that I have been working on with XVIII Entertainment since my move out to California, along with another small animation gig the other day. Details to follow on that because I'm not sure I'm allowed to discuss at this point yet. The movie, however, is in the QC ends of post production and while the projected release is somewhere in early n 2015, it has not yet been released for public viewing. I know the movie was picked up by Archstone Distributors the other month, which is always good, as Archstone has had a few head-turner type movies in the past on the list.
Again, "A Horse Story" is yet another project I am grateful to be a part of, to have gained that type of experience, and I am hoping for the best for it!
For 2015, I decided to spend some time back in New York and reconnect with some of my closest friends that I feel I may have neglected time with in the past, to bond with my family and to rack some art hours my old office I built a few years back. I'm making another attempt reorganize my priorities at trying to shove my way into the industry, loved or loathed, by updating up my website and attending to dusty works in progress since I last had a free moment.
Well, I've only been successful with meeting up with two friends unfortunately, my family and I have feuded here and there with feelings of a worn but unconditional and always familiar indifferent welcoming, and my work has sat on the back burner most thankfully to real work that trickled in. So, my office hours have exceeded my expectations so far this year! Yippee! Never new news with that. But in this small span of time, its has glimmer of aiding me financially. Double Yippers.
Which brings me to my big hopes for this year: To be able to survive independently on my own! Small but not so simple wishes for myself. I'd really love to find that perfect job, with the perfect co-workers, and the perfect price tag attached. I mean, if fairy tales stress to find that fitting shoe or we hear that cliche over and over 'the glove that fits', why is it so unreasonable to aim to achieve it all versus settle for less?
Is there a point in our lives where we should sit back and say I'm getting too old to be wanting anymore? Well, no, but if there was a HINT of 'yes', it would feel even worse to accept that I may just be too tired of trying at the same time that I am getting to old. I'm saying it isn't so, just because just that's it's extremely difficult to preserver.
I always say in my head. I deserve a good job. I especially deserve to be around good people. I worked hard all these years since I graduated, even if it wasn't even close to graduating top of my class... And while I was in school, I still worked hard-- two jobs during the time, one flying to the Caribbean at ungodly hours of the weekends and the other as a waitress at Olive Garden-- trying to make enough money to pay for my hour and a half commute back and forth into the city every other day for classes. Plus homework and lab time. I know no one can appreciate the excuse except me, because I actually lived it.
I still graduated. Barely. And barely finished my thesis-- as I few crucial elements had to be trimmed, etc, and it wasn't as big or cool as I originally intended. On my own just about.... somehow. I got a cool character out of it. That was about it.
And I knew that my lack of committed time was where I went wrong. To this day I regret, working those jobs while I was at school-- but I needed to. I think my thesis would have been so much better. (I know it would have been better). I think it would have helped me make closer friends with my colleagues, which I feel is really important as well...
I still kept the sail on its course, even while staying at the airlines seven years after I graduated. Doing some amateur looking but large scale projects for reputable clients that found me somehow-- that got the job done, executed the intention of the contract, but maybe didn't "look"so polished and pretty like a commercial built by ten. I had satisfied clients that I still keep in cordial contact with up to this present day.
I know my weak spots, though; The stuff I haven't yet proved to the professional world. But I also know my strong spots, my variance of skill-sets, and my worth-- including my hospitality-- which lacks in day to day existence and is an overlooked quality to have as an employee. And I keep feeling if I could just find the right place and the right group, they'd know I was an asset, they'd like me because they trusted me, and they'd enjoy my company and working with me.
I read something the other day that hit home in so many ways. It said "If a woman can't get hired, she can't get the experience, but she can't get the experience if no one hires her." Its meant for anyone and everyone, but I wanted to quote it in its exactness. I feel like I'm at a constant struggle with this since always. I'm sure many guys can relate, too.
outside of my twelve years the airlines, my only real longer term 3D job, was hardly even closely related to the entertainment industry-- and, therefore remained obsolete when trying to explain exactly what I was even hired for at any opportunity at an interview afterward...
But where I am now-- one of those great freelance gigs-- like this print job and this new and occasional plummeting I've been having with animation -- which would be a blessing if it became more consistent. I remember I always considered I should focus more on animation instead of the modeling when I switched from traditional animation to computer animation.
I just remember that I wanted to bring my characters to life.... All these drawings on my blog and my website and scattered all over place... And in order to bring them to life, I had to model them first. I wasn't thinking what I may be better at or what would make me a more employable prospect after I graduated. I didn't even think about my fate after I graduated... I just knew I loved it at that moment.
If I can keep gaining experience, I'm hoping that this year, I'm going to find a job or more jobs that I like and more companies that hopefully likes me and my work, and I'm going to get back on my feet again. That's all I want this year. Whatever type of job that is-- It's just got to fit like that glove, because I want my career to be a half my life in a good way, since working is supposed to be half of an everyday life. There key substance matter in that last statement, in a world wide scream, for any gender at any age.
I'm grateful that this job (and a few others) have entrusted me enough to give me a chance to shine!!!
It keeps my world at peace.
Well wishes to you all for the New Year, as well. And thanks for reading my rants, and looking over my work. Stay tuned for more updates soon! Happy New Year, everyone. :-)
The last couple of months I have had the great privilege of working with one of my favorite software doing one of my favorite things! My task was to make a bunch of 3D sculptures in Zbrush out of children's drawings and make them suitable to print as physical models with Shapeways and a company called 3DP4E. A few of them are now on an extended display at the Children's Museum of Art in New York City thanks to 3DP4E, which I had the honor meeting and of being escorted by, to go and see the exhibit for myself the other weekend!
It was a small but incredulously awesome display to say I was a part of, that hangs near the front entrance and is semi-viewable to the outside passersby who doesn't have time to step in.
I wasn't in town to attend the reception, because I was still in California at the time, but luckily was able to make it back home to find it may become a permanent exhibit! Quite the honor and it is picture worthy, as I haven't yet had the opportunity to be awarded too many of these types of jobs like this at this point in my career...
Currently, I am scrambling around to find work again, trying to stay focused and keep inspired while I try not to panic about money and worry about being broke.... This was a definitely a nice booster to my professional confidence, as times have been tough since I've left the airlines and made the leap to try to launch my career with art in entertainment full time.
I recently completed animation a 45 second promotional piece for the movie, "A Horse Story", that I have been working on with XVIII Entertainment since my move out to California, along with another small animation gig the other day. Details to follow on that because I'm not sure I'm allowed to discuss at this point yet. The movie, however, is in the QC ends of post production and while the projected release is somewhere in early n 2015, it has not yet been released for public viewing. I know the movie was picked up by Archstone Distributors the other month, which is always good, as Archstone has had a few head-turner type movies in the past on the list.
Again, "A Horse Story" is yet another project I am grateful to be a part of, to have gained that type of experience, and I am hoping for the best for it!
For 2015, I decided to spend some time back in New York and reconnect with some of my closest friends that I feel I may have neglected time with in the past, to bond with my family and to rack some art hours my old office I built a few years back. I'm making another attempt reorganize my priorities at trying to shove my way into the industry, loved or loathed, by updating up my website and attending to dusty works in progress since I last had a free moment.
Well, I've only been successful with meeting up with two friends unfortunately, my family and I have feuded here and there with feelings of a worn but unconditional and always familiar indifferent welcoming, and my work has sat on the back burner most thankfully to real work that trickled in. So, my office hours have exceeded my expectations so far this year! Yippee! Never new news with that. But in this small span of time, its has glimmer of aiding me financially. Double Yippers.
Which brings me to my big hopes for this year: To be able to survive independently on my own! Small but not so simple wishes for myself. I'd really love to find that perfect job, with the perfect co-workers, and the perfect price tag attached. I mean, if fairy tales stress to find that fitting shoe or we hear that cliche over and over 'the glove that fits', why is it so unreasonable to aim to achieve it all versus settle for less?
Is there a point in our lives where we should sit back and say I'm getting too old to be wanting anymore? Well, no, but if there was a HINT of 'yes', it would feel even worse to accept that I may just be too tired of trying at the same time that I am getting to old. I'm saying it isn't so, just because just that's it's extremely difficult to preserver.
I always say in my head. I deserve a good job. I especially deserve to be around good people. I worked hard all these years since I graduated, even if it wasn't even close to graduating top of my class... And while I was in school, I still worked hard-- two jobs during the time, one flying to the Caribbean at ungodly hours of the weekends and the other as a waitress at Olive Garden-- trying to make enough money to pay for my hour and a half commute back and forth into the city every other day for classes. Plus homework and lab time. I know no one can appreciate the excuse except me, because I actually lived it.
I still graduated. Barely. And barely finished my thesis-- as I few crucial elements had to be trimmed, etc, and it wasn't as big or cool as I originally intended. On my own just about.... somehow. I got a cool character out of it. That was about it.
And I knew that my lack of committed time was where I went wrong. To this day I regret, working those jobs while I was at school-- but I needed to. I think my thesis would have been so much better. (I know it would have been better). I think it would have helped me make closer friends with my colleagues, which I feel is really important as well...
I still kept the sail on its course, even while staying at the airlines seven years after I graduated. Doing some amateur looking but large scale projects for reputable clients that found me somehow-- that got the job done, executed the intention of the contract, but maybe didn't "look"so polished and pretty like a commercial built by ten. I had satisfied clients that I still keep in cordial contact with up to this present day.
I know my weak spots, though; The stuff I haven't yet proved to the professional world. But I also know my strong spots, my variance of skill-sets, and my worth-- including my hospitality-- which lacks in day to day existence and is an overlooked quality to have as an employee. And I keep feeling if I could just find the right place and the right group, they'd know I was an asset, they'd like me because they trusted me, and they'd enjoy my company and working with me.
I read something the other day that hit home in so many ways. It said "If a woman can't get hired, she can't get the experience, but she can't get the experience if no one hires her." Its meant for anyone and everyone, but I wanted to quote it in its exactness. I feel like I'm at a constant struggle with this since always. I'm sure many guys can relate, too.
outside of my twelve years the airlines, my only real longer term 3D job, was hardly even closely related to the entertainment industry-- and, therefore remained obsolete when trying to explain exactly what I was even hired for at any opportunity at an interview afterward...
But where I am now-- one of those great freelance gigs-- like this print job and this new and occasional plummeting I've been having with animation -- which would be a blessing if it became more consistent. I remember I always considered I should focus more on animation instead of the modeling when I switched from traditional animation to computer animation.
I just remember that I wanted to bring my characters to life.... All these drawings on my blog and my website and scattered all over place... And in order to bring them to life, I had to model them first. I wasn't thinking what I may be better at or what would make me a more employable prospect after I graduated. I didn't even think about my fate after I graduated... I just knew I loved it at that moment.
If I can keep gaining experience, I'm hoping that this year, I'm going to find a job or more jobs that I like and more companies that hopefully likes me and my work, and I'm going to get back on my feet again. That's all I want this year. Whatever type of job that is-- It's just got to fit like that glove, because I want my career to be a half my life in a good way, since working is supposed to be half of an everyday life. There key substance matter in that last statement, in a world wide scream, for any gender at any age.
I'm grateful that this job (and a few others) have entrusted me enough to give me a chance to shine!!!
It keeps my world at peace.
Well wishes to you all for the New Year, as well. And thanks for reading my rants, and looking over my work. Stay tuned for more updates soon! Happy New Year, everyone. :-)
